Well, some of my feelings and funk are starting to lift. The house inspection is done and now we are just waiting for an appraisal appointment. The inspection yielded only a few minor things that won't be fixed and apparently the chimney needs a liner because there is some condensation dripping and that will cost us $650 but compared to the $10k in repairs that we paid in New Jersey this was a breeze.
We have been very fortunate for the house sale so soon. We filed taxes and we owe another $6k return this year again (after just paying out $6k a few months ago). 2013 was the first year that we both were able to work an entire year full time. Derek adjusted his w-2 for this year and I will adjust mine as well when I start later this month. We close on the house one day after taxes are due.
All would be fine if we weren't going to turn around and buy another house in Washington. We will have to find a way to come up with money to pay for closing costs and whatnot with our new house buying experience early summer. We will what see what happens but there is no question that it's a seller's market out there so I don't expect that we will have any help from the sellers with the closing costs.
I decided not to buy a new car with all the financial transactions happening this spring. I made reservations for a motel out near my new job. Credentialing might not be completely done, but I can see they are making progress because one of my references received a call from them and I received a call from them regarding my malpractice insurance that I formerly had. I also had one of the onboarding dates clarified. While waiting at the VW for 3 hours, the reality of my upcoming trip started to take shape. They were able to update my navigation and they also also did the 40k tune up which included flushing the transmission and replacing all the filters and they also diagnosed my sunroof problem (new motor, dur). Today, I get to sit for another 2 hours for them to fix my sunroof.
I decided that I was not going to be settled until Darin tried the Prozac. We had several days in a row when he struggled and threw objects, used foul language that didn't have any meaning. We aren't able to increase the medication because he gets too many cardiovascular side effects. I was staring at what optimal medication management looked like for him and it just wasn't good enough. The psychiatrist was very responsive and I now have liquid Prozac (weird). It seems bad to put children on a classic antidepressant, but there is not any medication approved for the treatment of this disorder. The first line is an off label use of Prozac. It's an older drug. Darin has an awareness of his problem, but he doesn't have the maturity to regulate that type of severe emotion. Over time, this problem is only going to become more complex (throw in hormones) and the consequences more severe. I believe that the Tenex he was on was helpful in decreasing the severity of the outbursts but they did not treat the underlying problem which is well known as a deficiency in serotonin. Also, this condition is more prevalent in males and an abnormally high number of males with this condition also have elevated testosterone levels which could be even more confusing as he makes the transition from child to adult. For now, we have the maturity to see the complexities ahead, but he's just an 8 year old child who can't manage his body after a psychological trigger.
The bottom line, however, is that he has a psychiatric illness that could prevent him from leading a successful life if we don't maintain a therapeutic standpoint. Long term consequences point at later substance abuse, personal harm, harm to others especially with vehicles, divorce and poor personal relationships. Throw in a lowered self esteem from believing he has an uncontrollable part of himself and I see a disaster! I can't prevent everything, but at least we can minimize it.
So, the house is selling for sure (and then we become landlords to our house), I will be staying in a motel for sure (at least for awhile), I am leaving for sure and my new job is coming upon me for sure.
This morning, the birds are chirping and the sun is out. It reminds me that technically spring is only a few weeks away. The sun reminds me that summer is coming. I will be leaving very soon - in about a week. The adventure is about to begin and although it's long awaited, it feels wrong to be leaving without the rest of my family. I am also a bit concerned financially because there is a lot happening and there will be 1 month of me not getting paid (taxes due, closing of house, new motel, etc).
Today there is much to be done. There is my VW sunroof repair, the library reading of chapter 5 of Darin's book at 1400 (if we can make it), some more house addendums to sign and then Boy Scout cabins to fill.