I went into a mood funk over the weekend. Nothing serious, but just a perplexing funk of wanting new directions. I didn't run over the weekend either. My mind got in the way.
My mileage has been hovering around the 10-12 miles per week for the past few weeks. I decided I really want the benefits of running, but I want them everyday. On last Friday AM, I ran my 5 miles before work and by afternoon at work I was really tired. I had problems with insomnia over the Sunday-Monday and that is another sign of a mood funk. I took some unisom Monday night after work and that solved the problem. I realized this week that the mood funk was probably naturally hormone induced. I learned I can suffer hormone induced depression w/ PMS and I had it during the entirety of my pregnancies. Fortunately, it seems better today.
I noticed that when I run higher mileages during the week that on the weekends I usually need a nap. I will nap a hard 2-3 hours. This really takes away from my weekends. This week, I promised myself a lower mileage week, but since my routine needs a boost I will do 3-4 miles at least 5 days this week. Minimum requirement of 3.15 at least 5 times this week. It's Wednesday and I've done it twice. I'm at 8.15 miles this week. The 3.15 miles is a lot less time and less of a stretch. Running is good for me, but more is not necessarily better. Even though it wasn't super hot (60s) this morning, it's very humid and gearing up for a 85 degree day. I wore just my sports bra and running shorts and I learned that even my belly sweats.
I've had some gut issues for several months now. I have decided that it might be a good time to try eliminating some foods to see if it improves. Since my dairy consumption has been pretty low for the last few years, I wonder if whatever dairy that gets in (icecream occasionally, cheese, ranch dressing) is causing indigestion. It could also be a gluten issue as well. All I know is that it might be worth it to try some experimentation and see if things improve. On the genetic testing that Tom had done, it showed a very high risk for celiac disease (3-6 times higher than the average population). At the time I wasn't symptomatic but the last 1-2 years I've had mild changes and these last few months are noticeably different. Not in a I should go to the doctor way (I mean, really ... what would he say? I'm sure there's a pill for that), but something's not exactly best way. My grandmother has a history of Crohn's and I sure hope that's not where I'm headed but I don't have those symptoms fortunately. I have symptoms of intolerance.
Today I have off and the kids have been begging me to go to the movies. I bought tickets for us all to see The Secret Life of Pets 3D. I would also like to consider getting a new phone.
Work has been good. I just love fitting in and having a predictable day. I love the MA that is paired with me. We make a great team. It has been a good year here, finally falling into a group where I'm accepted and appreciated. I haven't known what that has felt like since my first job as a nurse midwife (in a doctor group, also). I also like having my own panel of GYN patients. The OBs are attracted to me, as I am to them. I wonder what it will be like to return to catching babies, when the intensity is ramped up again. Going back into the hospital setting will be like revisiting a well known part of myself, actually it was everything I knew about my career. I started in the hospital setting as a late teen/early 20s adult as a unit secretary & OB tech. Hospital work is all I knew, although I've had several roles in the same specialty. I took a break from the intensity and I wonder what it will be like to return. Will it be comforting? It's funny that patients keep asking me if I will be there at the hospital for them. It's spontaneous and a pretty regular conversation. Will I see it for the intense work that it really is, given that the intensity has been so low in the outpatient setting for the last year? Only time will tell.
Time for a green smoothie and 3D glasses.