Some more pictures of what to do when "all I'm doing is not enough."
Strategize about how to fill the gap between not doing enough and doing enough. Become depressed about it. Think about all the times when what I was doing was enough. Review pictures of when it was enough and laugh. Discuss with others about how when I wasn't doing my best, it seemed good enough. Reminisce about all of our friends ... who weren't even close to doing enough. Show anger about how I shouldn't have to be different, because it's good enough for everyone else. State that doing more will ever be enough. Deny the problem exists: I am doing enough. Look at others who also didn't do enough and wonder if those bad things could happen to me. Cry ... when I realize what I have to do for it to be enough. Weigh what it would take for it to be enough against what I'm doing now (that isn't enough). Grieve what I will have to give up in order for what I'm doing to be enough. It's probably not my fault that I'm not doing enough, it must be your fault or maybe my parents caused this! I must be the only one in the world not doing enough. It's not a good time to consider whether I'm doing enough: Maybe continuing as is will yield different results ... later.
Well, I'm not doing enough. Obviously.
Wonder, for just a moment, what it might feel like to be doing enough. Can I go on and do something new so that what I'm doing will be enough? Will I enjoy my new self ... the one who is doing everything possible for myself? What will I feel like then? Will I always want to do things just the same or will my behaviors become the "new" normal? What if I really just want to continue, even though it's harmful to myself? What if I do it wrong? What if I make a fool of myself? What if it's too hard?
I just don't like being uncomfortable. I don't want to have to think about what to do when I can't do what I've always done ... that wasn't enough.
It's not this way for everyone, but change can be hard for me.
Changing, perhaps, may be more than enough.